June 18, 2018
What It Is Like to Have My Son at St. Christopher’s
Written by St. Christopher's
He woke up this morning with a clear mind, most of the time he had a hangover or felt sick. On days when he wasn’t sick, he always ran late and didn’t seem to care about much but today he was ready to face the day. He seemed thankful for another chance, one may even say he is grateful to be alive.
Every day is a challenge, we knew it would be – he knew it would be. And I think he also knows it’s never going to be easy. He tells me this is the hardest thing he has ever done but he keeps pushing through. I am so proud of him for not giving up and I am glad he sees himself progressing. He tells me he knows why he’s doing this and that he knows the work is worth it.
He’s reconnecting with us, his family. I can’t tell you how happy that makes me, it was so painful to watch him destroy himself and push us away. He’s leaning into the work, I know he is because it is all he seems to talk about. He’s finding out who he really is, he tells me he kinda likes himself more now. If he could only see what I see in him.
He tells me he doesn’t have to do it alone because it’s not just him and he is not the only one. He is connected to a group of guys living the same life he is. They know his story because it is their story too. He is proud to be where he is today and he is proud of where he is headed. I could not be more proud of him and no matter where he is headed, we will be by his side.
Thank you, St. Christopher’s, for showing him the way!